Why?

So if you read my last post i discussed my latest prayer. "Lord, teach me how to fall in love with you." And well, it has been good :)

What I have been thinking about lately is why? Why would God listen to my prayer, and why would he answer it?

I was reading Hosea 5, and one of the notes lead me to Hebrews 2:3, and that lead me to 1 John 3. So i am reading 1 John 3 and all of the sudden I stop. I decided that maybe I should start from the beginning of the chapter and check out what it was titled. So my eyes skim up to the top of the page and read "God is love."

Let's recap. Last entry, I wrote that I prayed for God to teach me how to fall in love with him. Instead, He shows me that it is not about me. By leading me to Hosea he was showing me the deep love he had for me. I needed to be reminded about his great love! And then the other day he lead me all around the scriptures and I ended up in 1 John 3 where the title is "God is love."

Wow. Really God? I mean, I know you answer prayers- but for real!? It was like so evident that He was still guiding me in the direction I prayed for.

But why answer my prayer? Why listen to my prayer? Gosh, I am by no means worthy of the God of the universe to listen to my cry! It is just so humbling to feel God's mercy and grace.

(I am going to make another plug for the book i am reading- Humility, True Greatness, by C.J. Mahaney)

I am not sure that I ever need to know why. Just knowing that he does is what faith is about.

"Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know." Jeremiah 33:3

Just something to think about. What are you praying for?

Sincerely,
-Kelsey

Reverse thinking

First of all I would like to say that God is good. Today he showed me something that totally surprised me. And it was a simple story that I have read and talked about many times. But, you know how he has the ability to make us see things in a different light. And that my friend, is why I say He is good!

So, this has been my prayer for the past couple of days, "Dear Jesus, please show me how to fall in love with you." You know, we say things out of habit. And it is not like I don't love him, it's just that I want to be IN love with him.

I was thinking last night and this morning about all the past commitments I have made to the Lord. "I will do this for you. I will wake up this early for you. I will...blah blah blah!" Well, ya right. I have realized just how selfish I have become in putting myself before everything. (reverting back to my oh so humanly ways) A book called Humility, True Greatness, by C.J. Mahaney has really helped me to see how wonderful humility is. And, I totally recommend it :) It has taken me on a journey that I hope continues on for a long time. To aspire to humility and get rid of pride is not a simple task! A very hard one actually.

So i think i might be getting away from what i was going for. I asked God to teach me how to fall in love with him. So I sit on my bed and just ask to receive from him. To hear him guiding me to a passage that would help me fall in love with Jesus. As I sat there, I heard, "Hosea, Hosea, Hosea." Really? But that isn't about falling in love with you. "I know, it is about how much I love you."

What?!?! Oh my gosh I just got the chills. God wanted me to first understand how much he loves me before I could start to fall in love with him! Gosh this seems like a simple concept, but a mighty one at that.

You know, I wasn't expecting that. I had put myself first yet again. "How can I fall in love with you Lord?" And God is like "You can start by seeing how much I love you. It's not about you Kelsey, it is about my love for you. You love because I first loved you."

Amen!!! Experience God's love today! Be blessed by what he is up to :)

Sincerely,
Kelsey

Blush or Flush?

It's so cute!!!! Right?

Wrong. Well, I am not sure actually, I am not a blusher. I am a flusher! If you catch me off guard or happen to ask me a question that is slightly personal (depending on who it is), just wait for it. My face will turn bright red. Oh man, there is nothing cute about that! It is, cough cough, rather embarrassing!

I feel like people can just hear me inside my head when the flush starts to show- "no no no! Don't do that face! Please, not this time!" But sadly, that little talk never stops it from happening.

Here is what a normal blush might look like:



here is a kelsey blush:


See, I think I can connect with all those flushers out there- cause i know what it is like! So flushers- unite! Haha.

So do you blush? or flush? Lemme know :)

Sincerely,
Kelsey

Thunderstorm

Right now I am typing to the rumbling and groaning of the sky. It speaks very loudly today.

One time I was driving on i45 to my grandparents house during a storm. It was like 11 pm, but i needed to get away from HBU. (it was my freshman year- a year i would like to forget) Anyways.... I was going down the highway and it was just pouring. Kinda like what it is doing right at this moment, except way darker outside.

Then all of the sudden I was over come with sadness. It could have been because of what I was going through, it could have been from fear. But I pulled over, (into a taco bell parking lot) and just cried. I felt like the thunder was God's disapproval of humanity. And that the rain drops that fell were tears from heaven that expressed the sadness of our loyalty to sin.

This was the first time that all of humanity was heavy on my heart. "Forgive me o God, forgive me," I cried. "For I do not realize the seriousness of my sin." Man, this world is sad.

You know, thinking about all of this makes me think about the Flood. Man, if i think this thunder is roaring, I wonder what Noah thought!

This just reminds me that God speaks amidst the storm. "Repent, repent," i can imagine him whispering.

Let me not forget what I felt on that day in the taco bell parking lot.

I think this storm came at just the right time :)

Sincerely,
Kelsey

Time to Accessorize

Well, thanks to my dear friend Sade, I have now learned how to do things with my hair other than the messy bun. What is that you say Kelsey? Stray away from the messy bun?? No! Oh yes my friends. It is indeed a new day.

And what makes this so great is that I learned how to do cool things for free! Compliments of YouTube and some girl on the other side of the world. Ya, she is cool.

So today I put my own twist on one of the styles I have learned. And.....I put a flower in my hair! Big steps people. First i get this fabulous dress, then I wear a flower in my hair, and the next thing you know I will be running from a transformer in a big city with my hair blowing in the wind and my high heels confidently taking me to my safe destination. Watch out!

Ok, that might be taking it a little far, but i think you get my point.

But then this gets me thinking about the world view of Femininity. What does it really say about the role of women? What should we look like, what we should do for a living...etc. How much do girls let that sink in? Well, let me give you my thoughts on this, since you are already reading :)

Us girls, we pay attention. It might not look like we care, but we know what society is trying to throw on us. We were not born to conform to the media sisters! We need to place our beauty in something greater than all of those perfume ads! (btw, who puts on perfume naked? personally, it is the last thing i do before leaving)

I have been re-reading this book called Authentic Beauty by Leslie Ludy. And in combination with other books that I have read by her, it is teaching me again that I dont need to place my beauty in the shallowness of onlookers eyes. Those people know nothing about me. But what I need to do, what we as women need to do, is to place our identity in Jesus! He knows us. And he thinks that we are beautiful.

To be perfectly honest it is hard to convince yourself that you are beautiful. We revert back to our middle school days (aka what I like to call "the ugly years") (hey, go look at some pictures...) and hear the boys and girls snickering. Maybe, and hopefully, you were not the victim. But, and i am going to go out on a limb here, you probably werent Miss Superstar Sixth Grader. Look past your 6th grade mentality, you are beautiful!!

Do you ever people watch? To be honest, I am not a very good people watcher. It is not that I am always paying attention to myself, i just blame my non-observant skills. (i am sure some ppl would agree!) But, I decided, while I was starting this journey of beauty, to look at everyone and to really see them. (you know like avatar??? ya, i am completely kidding) but seriously, everyone is beautiful. I think it just depends on what area of life they have decided to place their beauty in.

I choose Jesus. The more time i spend with him, the more loved I feel. And in turn, the more beautiful I become.

This is the section of my blog that I would like to insert a little quote or something cool from the book Authentic Beauty. However, I accidentally left it at my house in Conroe. But hey, the thought counted right?

I am sure I will have more thoughts about this, I mean, look how much you have read already! I am sure you will be up for some more :)

Sincerely,
Kelsey.

P.s. you are beautiful.

Here we go

Well, I would like to admit that this is my first blog, and that you and I would be journying thru the blogging world together for the first time, but that would not be true. This is actually my third blog. I finally decided to create a blog that was just me expressing my thoughts and telling the world like it is :) My other blog is all about my poetry. So make sure you check that out. (yes, i am shamelessly making a plug for myself) :)

So i sit here after contemplating the name of this blog for about 30 mins. It is currently 12:45pm and I type to the tunes of Sade (my friend, not the actual famous Sade lol) and the TV blasting infomercials about acne treatments and P 90x. Neither of which i will try. Well, let's be honest, I would like to try P 90x, but the likelihood is very slim.

(i give a shout out to Sade for helping me come up with the brilliantly simple blog name. Limited creativity is the thread of our friendship)

My eyes are getting heavy and I think the caffeine from 3 cups of chic-fil-a sweet tea is beginning to wear off. But before I sign off of this particular blog for the first time I would like to express my excitement. Yay blogs! 3 is not too many :)

Sincerely,
Kelsey