Reverse thinking

First of all I would like to say that God is good. Today he showed me something that totally surprised me. And it was a simple story that I have read and talked about many times. But, you know how he has the ability to make us see things in a different light. And that my friend, is why I say He is good!

So, this has been my prayer for the past couple of days, "Dear Jesus, please show me how to fall in love with you." You know, we say things out of habit. And it is not like I don't love him, it's just that I want to be IN love with him.

I was thinking last night and this morning about all the past commitments I have made to the Lord. "I will do this for you. I will wake up this early for you. I will...blah blah blah!" Well, ya right. I have realized just how selfish I have become in putting myself before everything. (reverting back to my oh so humanly ways) A book called Humility, True Greatness, by C.J. Mahaney has really helped me to see how wonderful humility is. And, I totally recommend it :) It has taken me on a journey that I hope continues on for a long time. To aspire to humility and get rid of pride is not a simple task! A very hard one actually.

So i think i might be getting away from what i was going for. I asked God to teach me how to fall in love with him. So I sit on my bed and just ask to receive from him. To hear him guiding me to a passage that would help me fall in love with Jesus. As I sat there, I heard, "Hosea, Hosea, Hosea." Really? But that isn't about falling in love with you. "I know, it is about how much I love you."

What?!?! Oh my gosh I just got the chills. God wanted me to first understand how much he loves me before I could start to fall in love with him! Gosh this seems like a simple concept, but a mighty one at that.

You know, I wasn't expecting that. I had put myself first yet again. "How can I fall in love with you Lord?" And God is like "You can start by seeing how much I love you. It's not about you Kelsey, it is about my love for you. You love because I first loved you."

Amen!!! Experience God's love today! Be blessed by what he is up to :)

Sincerely,
Kelsey