Why?

So if you read my last post i discussed my latest prayer. "Lord, teach me how to fall in love with you." And well, it has been good :)

What I have been thinking about lately is why? Why would God listen to my prayer, and why would he answer it?

I was reading Hosea 5, and one of the notes lead me to Hebrews 2:3, and that lead me to 1 John 3. So i am reading 1 John 3 and all of the sudden I stop. I decided that maybe I should start from the beginning of the chapter and check out what it was titled. So my eyes skim up to the top of the page and read "God is love."

Let's recap. Last entry, I wrote that I prayed for God to teach me how to fall in love with him. Instead, He shows me that it is not about me. By leading me to Hosea he was showing me the deep love he had for me. I needed to be reminded about his great love! And then the other day he lead me all around the scriptures and I ended up in 1 John 3 where the title is "God is love."

Wow. Really God? I mean, I know you answer prayers- but for real!? It was like so evident that He was still guiding me in the direction I prayed for.

But why answer my prayer? Why listen to my prayer? Gosh, I am by no means worthy of the God of the universe to listen to my cry! It is just so humbling to feel God's mercy and grace.

(I am going to make another plug for the book i am reading- Humility, True Greatness, by C.J. Mahaney)

I am not sure that I ever need to know why. Just knowing that he does is what faith is about.

"Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know." Jeremiah 33:3

Just something to think about. What are you praying for?

Sincerely,
-Kelsey

Reverse thinking

First of all I would like to say that God is good. Today he showed me something that totally surprised me. And it was a simple story that I have read and talked about many times. But, you know how he has the ability to make us see things in a different light. And that my friend, is why I say He is good!

So, this has been my prayer for the past couple of days, "Dear Jesus, please show me how to fall in love with you." You know, we say things out of habit. And it is not like I don't love him, it's just that I want to be IN love with him.

I was thinking last night and this morning about all the past commitments I have made to the Lord. "I will do this for you. I will wake up this early for you. I will...blah blah blah!" Well, ya right. I have realized just how selfish I have become in putting myself before everything. (reverting back to my oh so humanly ways) A book called Humility, True Greatness, by C.J. Mahaney has really helped me to see how wonderful humility is. And, I totally recommend it :) It has taken me on a journey that I hope continues on for a long time. To aspire to humility and get rid of pride is not a simple task! A very hard one actually.

So i think i might be getting away from what i was going for. I asked God to teach me how to fall in love with him. So I sit on my bed and just ask to receive from him. To hear him guiding me to a passage that would help me fall in love with Jesus. As I sat there, I heard, "Hosea, Hosea, Hosea." Really? But that isn't about falling in love with you. "I know, it is about how much I love you."

What?!?! Oh my gosh I just got the chills. God wanted me to first understand how much he loves me before I could start to fall in love with him! Gosh this seems like a simple concept, but a mighty one at that.

You know, I wasn't expecting that. I had put myself first yet again. "How can I fall in love with you Lord?" And God is like "You can start by seeing how much I love you. It's not about you Kelsey, it is about my love for you. You love because I first loved you."

Amen!!! Experience God's love today! Be blessed by what he is up to :)

Sincerely,
Kelsey